Strongly believes that everything happens for a reason and that it is the best from GOD. Life is extremely unpredictable & to expect the unexpected coz not all that we want in life will be granted. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder and what matters most is the inner beauty rather than what is being potrayed as what we see can be deceiving. Be true to your heart and stay focused in what you want in life

my lovely friends

while gng thru my pictures from the external hd, i came across this. the first ever trip i went abroad w/o hubby since we were married. it was a short weekend trip with angie and siti to batam where we stayed at harris resort. it was great and memorable. i wish we could do it again sometime. i missed angie. she is one of the best chinese friends i had and the closest. she is very clean and hygenic... i don feel 'geli' when i with her. coz she always smells good and she bathes... ahahah wat am i talking abt? i really really miss angie alot. we would share silly jokes and gossips and stories with each other. it was great working with her too.




siti she is nice too but she tends to talk dirty too much and i don like that. but she is also nice and she does things for her friends. she made me a special frame which she decorates it herself and put our pictures (of us and angie) in the frame. she made a collage. it was beautiful and i appreciate it. now siti is working at ttsh ed!!! but she is at the ed while i am over at level 11 the short stay ward but we are at the same dept! how i wish angie is here too..... miss ya babe.....
miss ya all girls....

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& all i want for Christmas is you ♥

SICK....

That part of the month is here again. and i am on mc again. i was all ready to leave the house at 6am when the cramps started. it was excruciating. i tot i was lucky this time coz my period came earlier than last mongth and yest being my day off i get to rest in bed without the need of taking mc. but it proved me wrong. the pain continued to attack me early morning. i swallowed a tab of buscopan and another arcoxia - a long acting painkiller. and guess what? gastritis! i took it on empty stomach. so i called the ward to say tt i am seeing the dr and apologised tt i cant make it. they had to call my hca iz to come earlier. she start at 10am today and i am the only AN today.

i called iz to pass hubby the 'thing' but she was so busy that she hang up on me. i wasnt angry but i guessed she might be very busy. and she called be back half an hour later apologising to me for slamming down the fon. she was pissed off with the SN's there were 4 of them and NONE helped her with the diets. she is the only junior on shift and she had to cover the AN's role but come on cant one of them help her????? 4 SN ok. and all doing the staff nurse job and left this poor girl to do a AN role??? i hate it when they do that. we AN can assist them with their work tho not everything but like the triage-ing, registration of pts (thats their job ok) etc and i don understand why my SN's cant do dressing when there are so many SN. in my dept tt's the short stay ward which is also under emergency dept, there will always be 1 AN, 1 HCA & 2-3 SN's so why cant one of them be a junior if the HCA or AN is on off or mc? they wud just sit and so their paperwork. i do understand that at times they are very busy but if they are busy we are busy too. we serve the diets, we arder the diets (and send it to kitched), our 4 hly parameters, hourly clc monitoring, answer call bells, accept admission, discharges, maintain the i/v drips q4,q6 making sure it doesnt run dry, nebuliser all this they expect us to do plus dressings and maintaining the cleanliness of the cubicles. oh not forgetting sending pt's to x rays, ct scans, transfers.. they don do all that. they serve medications and write reports and make rounds. so will it kill them to help us with the dressings? its not ONLY AN job. sometimes we get over staffed and all the SN will be doing SN job. if i am on duty i will ask one of them to be a junior. but poor iz she cant even voiced out coz she is just a HCA. so what? hca is just as important.

i am now at a junction of wheter to resign by jan or to stay. i cant stand the bitching and the backstabbing but where doesnt? everywhere is the same. i am a bitch too if my juniors didnt do their work correctly. i will make a bigg fuss of it. coz i make sure to do my work correctly and promptly and i don accept ppl handing over to me slipslop work. i wont tolerate tardiness. and yes i do show it with my unhappy face and voice it out. i wud even call the person (who have left) abt why her job is incomplete. i just cant stand half done job. and as a senior staff i guess they must have known their job well by now and don need to be reminded rt?

some of my colleagues like to stay back after work to finish off their job - and to them it shows that they are hardworking and willing to sacrifice their personal time for work. but to me it just shows how incompetent u are. being not able to complete ur task on time. its shameful right? but thats what the management wants. they want u to carry their balls (membodek), show that u are hardworking (when u are not) and thats why these ppl get promoted easily. haizzzz......

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& all i want for Christmas is you ♥

off daes....
my off days are sacred to me. coz on every off days i wud try to spend it with hubby and our son aqiel without fail eventho i am damn tired unless we are ill or i am either one of us are working the whole day. today both of us are not working and so we decided to bring amaley out. hubby need to send his car to the wrokshop to change the tyre rims. he ordered a sports rim but was given the wrong dimension and thus makes it a bit weird to the car experts friend of his. whatever i don noe shit of those stuff..... basically i don care if its a sports rim or a colorful rim or rimless... hahah as long as it moves and airconditioned with music on then i am cool.
Amaley trying his hands on the wheels

hubby dropped us off at TM for me to do some shopping but amaley have another plan it seems. he was cranky and was throwing tantrums and i was unable to shop instead we went from one mall to the other w/o me touching anything. we rested at one of the seats ouside TM when this stupid fat ass cheena girl sat beside us and light up her cig. bitch! cant you see there's a child here? iwas so damn pissed off. everyone was looking at her coz she is all dressed up so sleazy. she is a plus size gal and she was wearing this short short skirt and tight tops which is so revealing. it doesnt bother me if she were to walk naked at TM but come on lah there are plenty of seats there and u must choose the one with the baby??? i immediately moved away and sit at the next bench. cursing at her at the same time and wondering - where's the basic courtesy? and i mean: if u wan to die, die alone don let others suffer.. that's real courtesy... hahha hubby smoked but he wont smoke in front of amaley. i wud make him blow his smokes out of the window.....

back home i need to get some sleep coz we are both on night today and we have not slept.... pray that tonight is not busy at all

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& all i want for Christmas is you ♥

HAPUNAN WITH THE GIRLS @ NEWTON CIRCUS

such a wonder time, with such wonderful friends from diff countries.... aye su (Ms Myanmar), sherille Ann & Eloisa (Ms Phillipines), Angelia (Ms China) & Alissa (Ms Sin Jia Po) hahah btw angie is NOT from china. wish Cai Yan the real (Ms China) cud join us she is sweet too... and preggie now.

We had a very heavy dinner.... chilli crab, kai lan, cockles, bbq sting ray with fried rice cant remember the other dishes... gosh its making me hungry and craving for crabs again!!!

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dOnUt FaCtOrY & Girls dae out



Truely din regret my decision of not gng back home straight after my AM shift tho i am feelin very very tired coz finally i am off the next day but after the girls persuaded me to spend the evening wif them, i tried to relax and yeah maybe i need some time off with friends.... its been ages since i last went out with any of my friends. we started off with eatin some donuts at donut factory i had 3 of their doube chocolate donuts... yummy and managed to keep 1 for aqiel coz i noe he digs those donuts too... he have a sweet tooth like mommy dearest... oh and ate sherille gave me another glazed donut for aqiel. thanks ate.... guess who we met?? margaret, melanie our NO (nursing officer), and 1 or 2 more ed staff all hungry and wanna have some quick bite. we had our donuts at the cafe and relaxed for awhile before proceding to ang mo kio to catch the 5.30pm bee movie.

after buying out tickets much to iz's disappointment as she cant get the crown the ticketing officer was wearing, we decided to have something heavier. so we proceded to sakae sushi... yummyyy i love sushi.... too bad hubby hates it. i love the octupus the most.... yummy....

the bee movie was so so it wasnt that funny for me. i find some scene stupid and silly. but i really enjoyed the time me, iz and ate spend together. we managed to shop a while before leaving our separate ways.... my personal driver is here to fetch me.... ahhaha

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one relaxed evenin at TTSH... choooiii lah touch wood :P

Me and adeq iz.. the picture says for itself...... one of those days that ED (emergency department) is quiet..... so peaceful....

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i am done with hibernating

it's been 1 year since i last blog..... so now that i finally have some time of my own, i think maybe. maybe i can continue to blog again tho i noe no one wud be reading my nonsenstical ramblings.... hahah i really agree with mother and baby magazine that i bought recently that blogging helps us to release stress.... while i was so greared up to start blogging again, my gold fish memory if anyone ever remembers that *smiles* sure did not help me one bit! i tried as i might... think lissa think..... what ur stupid blog addy.... hahah and i cant. so here it is a new home for me... clumsybeauty... hahah corney? i picked clumsy jus cuz.. i was listening to clumsy by fergie and she's beautiful aight? so tt's how it comes to that. anyway am glad that i have a place to let my steam off as u know tho i blog in friendster, my colleagues wud be able to read so.... there's no freedom of speech there.. hehe *grins slyly* (if there is such word)

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& all i want for Christmas is you ♥